I feel totally devastated about what has happened. I didn’t even know him. I don’t even know you very well. You’re my partner’s sister. I wish there was something I could do to help, but I know there is literally nothing.
I wish I could stop thinking about it, but my comforting partner is gone all day and it’s just me now. It’s just me thinking about how horrible your boyfriend must feel and how horrible you must feel because you know as well that there’s nothing to do to help. No son should ever have to see his father like that. No wife should ever have to see her husband like that. You hear about that stuff on tv. You don’t hear it about your partner’s sister’s boyfriend.
No one knows what to do to help.. The best you can do is to just be with them and let them know you’re there for them. Nobody should ever have to go through something like this. What are you supposed to say when an immediate family member shoots themselves..?
Also, I really need to get back to writing my side of the story. The side of the story that I’m not allowed to tell anyone because I could destroy your life with a few sentences. So many of my old friends think I’m a total asshole because I just go along with what you say happened, which is true, but they never know why it happened. They think I just shut you out because you’re a whiny annoying little prick, which you are, but that’s not all of it. I just want someone to know I’m not a ducking asshole.